Day after day I'm reminded of why I chose to become numb.. emotionless. One girl came into my life after what seemed like a lifetime. I wasn't sad, or depressed, I just didn't care.. but the look in her eyes reached deep into me, and brought me back to the light. For the next 3 months I was feeling the best I've ever felt. I swore to not go back, the way she made me feel was far too great.

Now she feels distant, now I'm being beaten down to nothing more than a heap of sadness, and anger. I want to scream out for someone to help me, someone to save me, but I am forced to contain it.. to hold it back.

I don't want to have to explain everything.. I might just write a story about it. Maybe that will help me. I will continue with Chaos, and Argania, but the stories will not be posted as much. I am trying my best, I swear I am.. I'm just not strong enough to face all of this.

STORIES

"My Days of Darkness" (coming soon.. hopefully)

"Chaos" (soon to be continued)

"Argainia" (Will be continued after 'Chaos' and 'My Days of Darkness')

Hey, I'm Cody, I'm 15, about 6ft and 140 lbs. I like to talk, when there's something worth talking about, but other than that, I usually stay quiet. People say I need to smile more, and talk louder, but no matter how hard I try, I can't. Most people think I'm emo, but I'm not. I just like black, and I don't smile. I'm not really used to describing myself... so if you want to know anything else, just ask... I've started writing again.